#this guy didn't make it in but maybe next time if ppl like him haha

[yeehawpim]

Painted this guy while trying to design some stickers.

[gold-rhine]

For the Keaya hangout event it’s confirmed that Dulic will also be somewhere in the hangout. Do you think the writers/creators are gonna actually try to solve their brother angst within the hangout or are they gonna just make em argue like they always do when they have an form of interaction in this game.

sigh. there is a lot to unpack.

lets start with is it even possible to have believable well done conflict resolution for them in hangout format? 100% no. also, hangouts are optional and hangout paths cannot be used to meaningfully develop character or change core parts of their storyline. bc like players who didn't play it will be confused as fuck and genshin never demands to play hangouts as it does to play quests before you can access new interaction with a character. hangouts are not for character development, they are to expand on characterization, add details and unexpected sides, give exposition on backstory, etc. hangouts dramatize and expand on things we already know from character stories, they set up character conflicts (noelle wanting and failing to join the knights, barbara depression and stalkers, etc), but they do not resolve them. see - Ning's hangout expanded on her relationship with her ppl through PR image and the importance of Jade chamber for her, but Jade Chamber was rebuilt in the actual quest, hangout just setup the symbolism and motivation for it, but if you didn't play it, you're not out of loop of what's going on anyway.

all meaningful character development and story beats are updated in quests, so the next time character shows up hoyo can tell you go play this and this quest to understand why the character is acting differently or how the story of them progressed.

that said, you know what hangout CAN do? fucking RETCON backstories and pretend it's always been like this, so its not story\character progression. I am wary they're heading this way, bc that's what they did in hidden strife and weinfeist thing. There is no conflict to resolve, you guys :) They were always on friendly terms and in contact :) just a lil strained maybe, haha! lets ignore the entire Mond archon quest interactions and the fact that diluc's story quest makes zero sense now, bc it's about keeping kaeya from learning he's batman, when apparently kaeya wrote to him that he knows long ago.

I hate it, because it flattens both characters and makes their characterization inconsistent, muddles existing lore and absolutely cheapens the storyline. The issues need to be addressed and explored for pay off to work. But I'm afraid that hoyo will have them hangout without ever addressing the conflict at all, a lil awkwardly but friendly and throw some fluffy familial interaction there, and fandom will go AWWWW brothers reunion squeee! And I will be a single bitter hater whose mad my fav is being stripped of nuance

So I hope they keep arguing, bc it leaves hope for the actually meaningful character development\conflict resolution in the future, instead of sweeping it under the rug.

[10hourshift]

Girl help the au is getting out of hand haha

Feel free 2 ignore this

For some reason I have spent quite some time doing some "world building" (if it can be called that) that I probably won't add in the comic, so, gonna dump it all here.

The school is not the best of all, not even by public school standards, if anything, the school is often a second choice, and most of those who enter there are mostly bc it has little requirements to get in, and is very lenient to special cases.

Some examples of these people would be Freddy (he enters after the classes started) Bon, Julian (both didn't enter the private school they were going to at the last minute, so they got "stuck" in that school, there's more to them later)

For the school itself, it's not that bad (there's a reason that many ppl prefer to go there as a second choice in comparison to other schools) the classes are fairly decent (though, some teachers are prone to not show up to class), and it has a bunch of academic and sports programs, even though it kinda lacks on the cultural aspect. Until a new benefactor steps in.

So, after Julian failed miserably during his entrance exams for the private school he was going into, his father got him into the school he is in now, and to "cover up" the incident his dad decided to become a benefactor of the school, and bc of that, now the school has more budget, with the condition of using it for the whole "art" section (idk how to call it). And out of the blue, the school now has an improved auditorium, a bunch of new material and instruments, and, of course, a variety of new activities for the students, starting with a brand new band contest where everyone can participate, who knows what might happen next, maybe there'll be an official school band, or a chorus or something, (this is all really just testing how the students might take the new situation)

**Julian exposition time again!. Let's go. He basically burned himself out for trying to study for the entrance exams, finish middle school, and all that. It was bad, like, forgetting weeks worth of studies the moment you start the exam bad, like staring at the questions for the whole 3ish hours of the test while none of the questions make sense bad, like, flunking so embarrassingly that it's basically a secret, to the point your dad makes up an elaborate plan to hide the true reason you're going to a certain school, and forces you to take a different path than the one he had already set up for you bc you couldn't keep up bad. Like, that bad. (Poor guy, every time I check on what his deal is, I add more to it. I'm sorry but I like it when the characters'actions are part of the setup of the story, idk how to explain but is Fun)

Now, onto the ppl behind the music contest.

Lana*- secretary- the one actually in charge of the contest

Vincent (yes, the waiter/presenter*) - intern teacher- the one who is supposed to do most of the work

Owynn- student 15 yr old- he helps out every now and then bc he has nothing better to do w no ulterior motives :)

Bon's dad*- music teacher (I'll get to that, hold on)- he has to set up practice sessions/ music classes for whoever enters the contest

[insert OC name here] (an oc wow)- student/intern 17 yr old- the one who ended up doing most of everything

*giving them roles bc I'm lazy 4 ocs, even [insert OC name] is almost the librarian, yeah he's another different character

The arrangement goes like this: Lana is the head of the project and the one who reports back to the boss (between the principal and Julian's dad idk). The planning of events, the coverage, and those administrative details get solved by Vincent, and Bon's dad is supposed to manage the music rooms and instruments, as well as make schedules for using those for practices. [Insert OC name] does most of the hard labor, checking registrations, putting up the signs, etc., since their job as an intern is basically to help w anything that needs to be done. And also basically doing all of Bon's dad responsibilities since he doesn't actually have the time to do his job as a teacher.

[celestie0]

ELLIEIEIEIEIE hi 💗💗

bae you should’ve HEARD the squeal i let out when you posted 😭 i like rolled around on my bed and kicked my feet for a good minute or two IM SO GLAD YOUR BACK BAEEE 💗

also bae omg im realizing how many mistakes i made on my most recent ask omg its so embarrassing 😭😭 im assuming you understood what i meant tho? 😭 IN MY DEFENSE I WAS ON THE TRAIN SO IT WAS BUMPY AND I DIDNT WANT PPL SEEING MY PHONE 🫠 like have you ever been in public and then someones looking over at your phone?? SHIT HAPPENS TOO OFTEN I SWEAR.

bae missing gojo so bad rn i turned to character ai 😓

anyway do u remember C?? yeah so i confessed and uh 🧍‍♀️he kinda just brushed it off and brought up another girl 😭 BUT GET THIS. THE OTHER GIRL IS ONE OF MY CLOSEST FRIENDS. like imagine you’re texting a girl who’s been your friend SINCE YOU WERE KIDS and KNOWING she has a crush on you and then you still bring up one of her closest friends relationship status. LIKE??? i’m being so fr when i say this i cried. i called my friend D in TEARS after i finished talking to C and D was just like “yo wait what happened?” and then i had to explain AND IT TURNS OUT C HAD BEEN ASKING ABOUT MY FRIEND FOR A WHILE. they danced together once at a party and apparently hes had a crush on her ever since??

okay but enough abt C,, hes an asshole and i never want to speak to him again (i still like him very much and i still need him but im tryna cope lolol) 💗 how’ve u been bae?? i hardly ever send in asks anymore so i feel like we don’t interact as often 😞 omg bae do u have any show recommendations?? i’ve been dying to watch something new lately but all the shows my friends recommend are ones i’ve seen already 😓😓

anyway bae thats all 💗 i hope you were doing well on your hiatus (even though it was short!) and i can’t wait for the next kickoff update ‼️ byebye and i love uuuu

-🦌

hiii my lovely <33 OMG you're too fucking sweet i swear you make me smile everytime i see you in my inbox. yes it's nice to be back i missed everyone lots :'') i still might take it a lil easy tho haha i realized during my hiatus i've gotta just spend less time on tumblr between my fic updates kdjfhsdkfjl

haha yes i hate when ppl look at screens. but i always used to look at people's screens during lectures in college to see what they're up to and what they're ordering on amazon HAHA i guess it's human nature to be nosey asf

omg NOOOO babe that's horrendous fuck C i'm so sorry you went through that :(( you deserve sm better than that. aww bb whatever helps you cope is valid, but i do think that maybe it's time to let C go...you confessed n did what you could, and even if he didn't like you back, he should've treated your confession w care n respect. the way he reacted is major red flag!! i'm sorry though, i know you've known him a long time, so that has to be really tough to go through :'') chin up bb, i promise you'll find better guys out there that will treat you w the care you deserve

i've been okay!! i had my last day of work on thursday which was kind of bittersweet, i cried in front of my PI LOL (he's an old german man and he's always been very sweet to me n i'm really gonna miss him aaa) i had social plans the past couple of days which was fun but i'm kind of an introvert so i spent today recharging my social batter haha.

ooo i've been watching bojack horseman recently!! i like it, it's funny and realistic, but i've heard it becomes a total shitshow (not as in it becomes a bad show, it's still a great show BUT the characters kinda stress you out)...i really like it, i've been recommending it to people! i like shows that are kind of cynical commentaries w an overlay of comedy though HAHA so if you're into that too, i'd recommend it. if you wanna watch a really good romance show, i'd recommend 'one day' on netflix!! it's like a slow burn friends to lovers, and the acting in it was phenomenal. no spoilers but i will give a heavy angst warning.

thanks bb!! yes my hiatus was good haha i appreciate you sm <33 love u tooooo darling

[versadies]

i found your fic "evermore" by chance, and golly, i hope you don't mind me spilling everything about it.

now to clarify...i am someone who's distant with genshin impact (as in, ive put a ton of hours into it, played it an launch even!) but due to the overwhelming fandom and hoyo being....like that, I haven't been able to get into it with good feelings. its still a fun game, despite it all.

so when I got into your fic, I had....how do you say.... less attachment to the characters. I didn't think much of ayato, since his banner started when I quit playing. but I was intrigued with the plot! I'm super familiar with angst! I thought to myself, this will be a fun read.

and....quite frankly...your fic made really invested in these characters. I could feel the reader's pain reminiscing their time with ayato, the small dips and feels with diluc, how thoma has been pining for them this whole time- a very fresh, very interesting perspective to these characters, in a scenario that you couldn't see ingame.

while i expected the "im in a arranged marriage" plot with ayato, I certainty didnt see the twist with diluc! I can see why you said he wasn't leading on, and the revelation makes a bit more sense with ayato's comment of "the wind is going strong" because not only there were rumors, but the fact that those rumors could've reached jean before she could arrive. it would've been messy if she knew, right?

although...on that note, I might be misremembering on my part, but everyone else seems to be...pushing? or rather, interested with how diluc and the reader's relationship. rather than feeling he was leading us on, it was rather you who "lead us on" (im putting this in quotation marks bc i dont like the connotation of the word) which is why I can understand people feeling disappointed because it wasn't clear, even if there was shifts into diluc's pov- why hasn't there been an instance of him thinking about her? i think something like that would better ease in the readers about the ship, but also, since you never mentioned diluc's plus one, i assume this was the road you wanted to take- which isn't bad at all! i respect your decision, and im amazed you went through with it, even if it can cause backlash. many respects for you, even moreso you were willing to write an alternative version.

anyways, all in all, amazing fic. I cant wait to see what's next on the board. maybe more angst? haha!

hii !! this is such a late response so you probably thought i ignored this ask, but im not one to ignore ppl’s thoughts on my fics sooo here’s my response :DDD !!

im glad evermore managed to bring you attachment to the characters and how you enjoyed the things evermore has <333 there was acc a few more “hints” (i wouldnt consider these hints seeing how it doesnt hint the fact that diluc is engaged, but rather there’s something secretive about him) i put in some chapters — as for the shifts where the pov is on diluc, ig thats for you to find out in chapter 14 🤫🤫🤫

but overall, it was my bad that i lead you guys on in hopes in hiding the secret plot twist 😣😣 i didnt consider the fact that doing so would lead ppl to be very disappointed so i apologize for that 🙏🙏 thanks for respecting my decision and for staying until this series ends, i hope youll enjoy what’s to come for the future chapters <333

[forgottenamira]

forgottensebastian @forgottenamira @forgottenaoife so since amira has actually always been kind to him (he thinks lmao) and has always tried to make sure that he and edmund have a good relationship, honestly his relationship with amira has always been pretty good and sometimes he does get ~weird~ vibes from her but he also attributes a lot of that to his mom talking who never has anything good to say about amira haha! forgottenamira @forgottensebastian skldjfaksjdfj me like sebastian you have such good instincts!! trust them!! and meanwhile amira just quietly puts a hand over my mouth kjdslfkjdsf honestly no that makes a ton of sense!! do you think he's ever said anything abt amira to aoife and, if so, what do you think it might've been? forgottensebastian @forgottenamira @forgottenaoife i'm sure they've discussed their fams, so he's probably brought her up and basically said that she's not as bad as she seems/some people think and would have given her examples of how she's treated him and how much she cares about encouraging step-sibling affection (something his own mom doesn't even do!) forgottenamira @forgottensebastian marian like 'that evil witch will POISON you sebastian!!' and amira like 'no i won't. i don't love him OR want him dead yet, and im not terribly concerned he'll get with child, which are the only three reasons to poison someone, so he's perfectly safe with me' ;DDD @forgottenaoife i do also think that godfrey's rep is a lot. better than amira's! like amira doesn't give two hoots what ppl think but godfrey ~does and he knows how to be charming etc when he wants/needs! i feel rep wise amira's the worst but godfrey and tristan seem like upstanding guys hahaha now obv sebastian might've said ~otherwise bc obv he has the inside scoop hahaha but yeah! in terms of public opinion i think that's where it all kinda falls! @forgottenaoife @forgottensebastian so lizzy mentioned that these two've probs talked abt their fams and i just have to laugh bc i always do when i think of the varmonts telling the malconaires abt their whole ~family situation~ like it just feels like https://i.kym-cdn.com/photos/images/newsfeed/002/714/418/8a6.jpg bc the malconaires talk abt how much step families suck and then the varmonts just launch into their whole thing and the malconaires are suddenly like tbc 'damn i should be nicer to cassimir, he could be sooooo much worse' lakjsdflkjsdkjfsdf (or at least this was how rosie felt when edmund no doubt opened up abt these things asp -- the feeling didn't last much past the next time she talked to cassimir id guess but still hahaha she was def drive through employee on the inside hahahaha)

arthur:

omg i feel so bad for eithne! siblings tryna take ur positon is the worst!! i think abt this everyday since my siblings and i have to fight each other to the death for our father's throne

^^^rosie

sFSDAF

ok so i just wanted to include the replies!! but i do largely agree w your assessment tho that these two probs don't have much to do at all at least until much later in the story!

tbh tho godfrey's playing the whole malconaire thing pr close to the chest (he knows his whole fam would def try to stop him from destroying the world, even amira who hates the world!!! but unfortunately lives there...so annoying smdh ;DDD) so idk that amira would even know abt that, unless he kneeds her resources to make smth happen w it asp? but i could def be wrong/that could def happen so we'll see! kdslajfkljsdf but yeah my point here is that idk if even ~that will lead to these two chatting, tbqh??? (to be clear, tho, i can def see aoife's relationship w/knowledge of amira still impacting aoife's decision re: godfrey!!!! i doubt that would change! i just meant in terms of interaction between these ladies)

the biggest thing i can see for potential interaction here is if maybe amira noticed chemistry between her and sebastian at the ice ball? she does have him pr well in hand, she feels, so she probs isn't too worried she'd ever have to actually act on manipulating him via her, but she also likes to keep her options open when it comes to maneuvering her enemies alksjdfkjsdfj so she'd probs want to at least meet aoife, if she did notice that. if we went that route, amira'd def have her playing nice game on which...idk that its as nice as you might want, but its the best she's got aljskfkljsdfjk

OOC | Amira & Aoife

kate!! i wanna take this opportunity to apologize for amira in advance bc she is...the worst frankly lakjsfkjsdjf she sees everything and everyone as opportunities and threats and that's abt it. so honestly idk if amira knows anything abt aoife, but if she knew that seb has feelings for her, she'd see that as quite an opportunity to exploit her stepson/edmund's rival alkjsdfkljsdfj this is basically her view of all the malconaires tbqh she doesn't have godfrey's slightly more far-sighted schemes to destroy them to prop edmund up in the eyes of the populace, amira would simply see aoife as effectively living, breathing blackmail to help maneuver sebastian however she liked. as it is, she probs just sees her as a foreign noble who is likely just as scheming as everyone else tbqhe

[eileenbr]

SUPERGIRL 6X18

So I'm watching Supergirl 6x18 and I'll be writing the reactions I'm having.

Umm nothing really good or bad yet. Although William was right to get mad at Andrea, I don't blame him this time.

Nooo leave my Brainy bby alone😭

Ughh, the cgi hurts my eyes 😫

Alex telling Kara not to tell her how to raise her child??? The child she just adopted?? The child who's suffering the same things Kara did?? Girl, she didn't have bad intentions when she told you that, why would you get that mad?... Also, with that conversation it seems they gonna make Kara live as Kara Zor-El and not Danvers, It seems obvious now and I'm not sure how to feel about it.

Oh yes, the greatest love story Nyxly and Lex, pfff, glad the bad guys can find love but the main character doesn't 🙄

Aww Lena giving Andrea advice, growth!

Bad cgi again, really bad.

So no totems for Nyxly, okay.

Gooood, Alex apologized, they are in good terms, that's nice. Again the part of not hiding anything about their identity, seems they are setting Kara to be full Kara Zor-El on earth (which probably makes sense with the corage gauntlet).

Ugh, again Nyxly and Lex, too much. They are already in love, both, in just 2 episodes.

Bachelorette partyyy, how fancyyy haha. Nooo Brainy, don't cryyy... Wow Lena's dance, in love... Hahaha Kara's dance, goofy as always 😂... Whyyy, why can't brainia be happy together, why do they have to suffer :(

Oh no, Lex entered the tower, please don't do anything to Esme.... Okay so W chose to record a video instead of calling a superfriend?? Maybe a videocall to them?? Damn... Oh no, Nyxly found Esme... Okay Nyxly sexy voice, of course I would believe her as well... Sooo this is the way William will die:s

Nooo their Bachelorette party being ruined, damn these people can't be happy for a second.

Oh no, I have to say it kind of made me sad watching William die, I mean, I've never liked his character and many times he was just there doing nothing but hinder, and yes he should've called a superfriend now they are also his friends instead of recording a video, but killing him makes no sense, and he was kind of tender this episode with Esme (I appreciate it), and it's gonna be another trauma for them, specially my girl Kara who always blames herself for the bad things that happens in that city or the world.

Oh God, what was this episode?! This season?! I can't take this anymore, I've never been happier this show is ending as much as I am rn.

I'm gonna be really objective here. I really hope they find a way to make Brainy stay in this time, I would love if Kara finds her perfect partner and no, I don't think that should be Mon bc I don't think they could ever have a healthy relationship, I know Mon has wroth (if Crisis didn't change that bc we really don't know yet), however he did it in the future and that's his place, he has a mission there as well as Kara has its own in the present, and her family that means everything to her, and tbh I don't think they are that compatible, it wouldn't make any sense now after everything Kara's been through and her personal growth, but do I think the writers would care about it? NO, at this point I feel they are capable of doing anything, (not in the good way).

Talking about Supercorp, I think any possibility is already dead. Let's be honest, for much that I want it to happen, the writers/show runners have shown 0 interest in it, so I have no faith (hope they prove me wrong but I don't think so).

Andrea Rojas aka Acrata aka a waste of a powerful character. I know it's not a big dc character but that doesn't mean she isn't powerful.

And Dansen, probably the only good thing lately. I hope there won't be any trouble or interruptions during their wedding, that'd be incredibly unfair.

After all, I really don't wanna to watch the finale, I'll wait to see ppl reactions and look for Dansen wedding, Idk, I guess I will see how I feel next week but ugh. I wouldn't be surprised if the make Lena and James a thing again bc as I said, I expect nothing good for this finale.

Thank you for reading this, I'm mad haha.

[hobidreams]

Hi Rain!

I'm sending you this ask as a reply to your reply lol but also to say that: I have finished the last 2 eps.😆! And I won't spoil anything promise. I want to wait for you and pls take your time to watch it until you want/ready to talk about it! 💟

Here are my follow-up comments on your replies ahehe lol:

• Ooh definitely. Didn't even know divorce is legal in Japan! It's good to know they're taking marriage (as they should haha) seriously unlike the other LIB franchise 😅

• Ah yes, Eri!! Ah, that's right haha to avoid any more unneccesary dramas haha. I did sort of liked that they did that.

• With Mori's dream-- ah man poor guy but hope he meets someone who's a better match for him!

• Now I can't wait to watch the reunion now!

• LOOL I also don't like Wataru's goatee 😆😆 It looks weird right? Didn't think it fit him much. it distracted me a lot ahahahaha that I just wondered what he'd look like without one haha. Also i remembered when he had his hair cut for his legit proposal to Midori, the afterlook looked.. almost the same? The direction his hair was just different but i didn't think there was something new 😅 but anyway ahaha

• I just wondered, did you like/ever liked Yudai? Haha just curious 😆

• The one with Ayano-- I just read the link (thanks!). So that's why...i thought I was the only one thinking about it, i didn't want to be rude haha. I did noticed when Shuntaro & her were arguing in one of the eps, her voice got deeper and serious?? Which was weird. Knowing you and other people thought this too, makes sense. I also really think she's facing maybe a turmoil deep inside her but overall, I hope she figures things out in her life. Totally agree with you!

• Asfshdjrir jeezus, istg--I can't with Midori sometimes 😆 cannot wait to talk all of these with you!!

• OH I love that they're all genuinely friends! I was also stalking their IGs last night but all of them haven't updated with the latest eps yet haha.

• I can't wait for the reunion!! I hope they'd green light it!

Are you also watching the LIB US season 2? They just released it a few days ago, right?

Very true haha 😂-- we all just hope these people get to be happy in the end! And definitely-- a wedding dress fitting moment is a MUST hahaha. I mean we all love outfit montages 🥰

OMG GUUURL-- yes yes, just keep watching and enjoy it all hahahah 😆 I CAN'T WAIT TO KNOW YOUR REACTIONS AND HEAR YOUR THOUGHTS!! 👀👀

I also hope you get to rest well after the procedure you had! Don't move too much and pace yourself. Wishing you a speedy recovery! Take your time and also enjoy watching!!

Sending you big warm hugs!! 💟💟

- 🧇

IM FINISHED WATCHING NOW!!! please send me your thoughts <3 im so excited to hear what you think!!!!

omg for Wataru’s hair, i 100% agree with you LMAO. i was sitting there like ?? what the heck did he change. ALSO I HAVE TO SHARE THIS WITH YOU!! 🤣 the goatee grew on me a lil bit by the end of the show but ONLY a little bit hahah

im not watching LIB US S2. ive seen some ppl talkin about it on the JP subreddit and it sounds like a hot mess hahaha. i ony watched s1 because of all the Jessica memes anyway 🤣

thank u for ur patience 🥺🌹 it was a rough few days at first but im feeling much better now and am still taking things easy, but feeling good. take care <3 cant wait for your next msg!!! 

[anonymoustalks]

I told my husband I felt neglected and tempted to cheat, and he didn't care

(7-3-20) You both like conversation.

You: heya

Stranger: Hiya

You: how's your day?

Stranger: Going ok. Slow. You?

You: I have to go to work in like half an hour

You: I spent my morning reading about the epstein case

Stranger: I'm glad they finally got her

You: one of the victim's memoirs

You: yeah

Stranger: I see

You: it's really jarring to read

You: or well, heavy

Stranger: Yeah. I watched the documentary on Netflix. But it's so much bigger than just them

You: mhm

You: I think for me, as I was reading, it feel like I saw familiar patterns in it, which felt kind of creepy

Stranger: The documentary was unimpressive. Almost like it was covering for the larger conspiracy.

Stranger: Familiar to what?

You: in the sense that I feel like I know certain people like either the victim or the abusers or others

Stranger: I understand. With similar stories.

You: well my uncle has like this company and has a lot of money

You: growing up he had like three houses, a boat

You: and some of his demeanor just seemed familiar to like the way many of the ppl epstein affiliated himself with

You: kind of like the ego/bravado-ness that is kind of trump-y

Stranger: Oof, that's a scary realization

You: a lot of the victims also had really heavy family stories or backgrounds

Stranger: Yeah, that's who they prey upon. Vulnerable.

You: and then I started thinking about some people I met online with heavy histories

You: yeah

Stranger: I see

You: like I have one online friend who just can't stop dating people

You: who honestly aren't good for her

Stranger: Sounds like daddy issues

You: yeah idk

You: I don't always know what's going on with people

You: but it sounds worrisome

Stranger: Yeah. People hide things well.

You: yeah

Stranger: You sound like a good friend, though

You: well, idk

You: yes and no in the sense that I ghosted her from time to time

You: it's just so much to handle

Stranger: I understand

You: like she's a drama magnet

Stranger: Yeah, I have an aversion to those

You: mhm my life is really simple in comparison

You: or well, it's so strange to wrap my head around all this drama that people get into

Stranger: Yeah, it's fascinating to people who live pretty straightforward lives

You: mhm do you go through much drama?

Stranger: I'm not a dramatic person, no. I have zero conflict with friends.

Stranger: But my marriage is very dramatic.

You: ahh... I'm sorry to hear that

Stranger: Lol it's fine

You: would it be prying to ask?

Stranger: Nope. Otherwise I wouldn't have brought it up

Stranger: I got married really young, at 19.

Stranger: We're just very different. He's pretty broken and addicted to pc gaming.

Stranger: Ignores me.

You: ahh :c

Stranger: So I come on here for connection I guess?

Stranger: It's not that dramatic lol.

You: it's just sad I guess

Stranger: And you? Simple life then?

You: well, I have marriage-related complications too I guess

You: although I'm not married

You: just engaged

You: although I feel like I've been delaying the topic of marriage

Stranger: I see. If it's complicated, you should end it, tbh.

You: or I'm not mentally there or something

You: well, it's not altogether that bad

Stranger: That's really selling it, lol

You: like my partner is wonderful in every way

Stranger: Oh

You: I have like lgbt complications of various sorts which makes it feel vaguely complicated for me

Stranger: You're wondering if there's something better?

You: well, not exactly that; I think my fiancee is amazing and we have a really great relationship in terms of companionship

Stranger: Ah, sexually?

You: I think that's where things are a little weirder, yes

You: I mean, we're totally clear and transparent about this

You: but I think it just keeps popping up in my mind from time to time

Stranger: Hmm,that's tough

You: like we trust each other totally and love each other in all of those ways

You: it's just that sex is challenging lol

Stranger: As in your sex isn't great?

You: mhmm... I just don't have much interest in it, I guess?

Stranger: Because of your partner's gender? Or your partner themself?

You: I think maybe it's my gender moreso than theirs idk

You: I think I'm in general just not very interested in women

You: but I feel like my connection with my partner is way more than on a sexual level

Stranger: You're going to suffer if you marry her though

Stranger: Sounds like a friend.

You: I mean I've never dated any guys lol

You: and I'm not sure if I want to

You: we've been together for 8 years lol

Stranger: Is she aware of this?

You: and we finally got engaged last year

You: yup!

Stranger: Well,it's good you're so honest

Stranger: And if she's not scared and trusts you, that's great

You: it's kind of like this hard spot where it feels like we're mutually dependent on each other

You: like it feels too scary for either of us to let go, I guess

Stranger: I understand that

You: and I don't think I want to

Stranger: I wouldn't get married unless I was over the moon about it though.

Stranger: You'll cheat eventually

You: mhm

Stranger: I went ahead and married even with red flags

Stranger: And I 100% regret it

You: I see

Stranger: But I shouldn't project my issues on you

You: it feels like time is slipping away for me

Stranger: How old are you?

You: like I guess in a sense we delayed for so long because we weren't sure

You: I'm 26 she's 28

Stranger: I see. Not that old yet. But I understand. It's really tough to detach after 8 yrs. I'm sorry.

You: yeah

You: or well, I feel like I'm the kind of person who would just sort of carry on with the status quo

You: like we're both very happy cohabitating

Stranger: It's comfortable and you know each other.

You: and then I feel like next thing I know it it's going to be like 10 years lol

Stranger: Yeah

Stranger: I've been with someone online for 2 yrs now

Stranger: I'm cheating

You: ohh interesting

You: yeah I can understand

Stranger: And it's like night and day. Of course, it's semi fantasy and I don't have to deal with the day to day problems with him.

Stranger: But I'm experiencing what it's like to truly admire, respect and love someone

You: mhm

Stranger: And to be excited

You: right

Stranger: So I can only offer my experience. But I would really think about it.

You: yeah, thank you for sharing

Stranger: She seems like a really good person. So I understand the conflict.

Stranger: I told my husband I felt neglected and tempted to cheat, and he didn't care. So it's a different boat.

You: ahh :c

Stranger: I wish you the best though. You should stay away from drama friend though. Those people just suck nice people like you into their black holes.

You: aww haha okay

You: yeah and i wish you the best too

You: I guess it's close to my half hour

You: so it was nice talking!

Stranger: Thanks. Have a good day at work!

Stranger: Bye

You: bye!

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